Homesick

Yesterday I had to get labs at my doctor, a routine checkup. As I drove into town it just felt a little different. I hadn’t been able to explain the feeling that crept up every once in a while with the pandemic but I think the word could be “homesick.”

I pull up at the doc to get greeted outside and temperature taken with a questionnaire of my life. I go into the office to find all the chairs gone and a long table stretched across the room with masks, hand sanitizer and such laid out.

It started feeling a little eery to me. I began wondering if it would ever go back to the days where I would go in and sit in the waiting room and just see all the different people coming in for appointments.

I made it through the labs although now they take my credit card before they took the blood tests. Why? That was just different too?

I hadn’t been to Sally’s Beauty Supply since before the pandemic, I had just been ordering things but I needed a few things quickly. The window had been broken by a few stragglers after the protest in the town. There was a mural painted on the window and all the clippers were gone and the order they made months ago had not arrived yet.

Many things were no longer on the shelves because of slow orders. But I did get to get a few things I had really been needing and wanting. Got to chat with the young girl working in there and she was feeling similar to me. I was glad to have some conversation with her.

I then passed the new Home Goods store that has just come to town before the pandemic shut everything down. I just had to put my mask on and go in. Hardly anyone else in the store. Somehow I felt blessed to even be in there getting a few things, like I wouldn’t get to again.

I had to fast in the morning before my labs so I was excited to get out and go eat lunch. There wasn’t anyone available to join me so I thought I’d drive through and go park someplace and eat.

First I went to Fazoli’s… no the line was way too long. I then decided on Panda Express. Not as many choices but I found something I liked. I made sure and asked if I had a fork…”yes,” she said.

Sure enough I pulled in to a shady parking lot and no fork. Chinese food with no fork? I managed to get the lid off of one of the containers and ate with that, I felt like I was on the movie Castaway. Maybe I’m being a tad dramatic.

What helped me put it all into perfect perspective was when I got home and someone asked if we could help someone that had their perfect suicide plan, planned out. We were asked if we could help. “Yes we will see her soon!”

This made me see how grateful I am that I have had only one day like this, not every day like this. I am able to sort it out. I am able to know that even if things don’t go back like they were, I will be ok.

My life is not really about me or about things. It’s about helping others. It’s about living the call that came from my Heavenly Father to help others get free. It’s about helping others get healed. That’s the thing that brings me the most joy and fulfillment and I’m grateful that for right now that has not been taken away.

What do you think you were put on this earth for? There is a reason and a purpose! If you need help I can work with you to find it. I’m not wanting money– it’s free.

Contact me if you need to!

There are good things for us!

Don’t let the sad days overtake you!

Life is still good!

One day at a time!

““Afflicted city, storm-battered, unpitied: I’m about to rebuild you with stones of turquoise, Lay your foundations with sapphires, construct your towers with rubies, Your gates with jewels, and all your walls with precious stones. All your children will have GOD for their teacher— what a mentor for your children! You’ll be built solid, grounded in righteousness, far from any trouble—nothing to fear! far from terror—it won’t even come close! If anyone attacks you, don’t for a moment suppose that I sent them, And if any should attack, nothing will come of it. I create the blacksmith who fires up his forge and makes a weapon designed to kill. I also create the destroyer— but no weapon that can hurt you has ever been forged. Any accuser who takes you to court will be dismissed as a liar. This is what GOD ’s servants can expect. I’ll see to it that everything works out for the best.” GOD ’s Decree.”

‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭54:11-17‬ ‭MSG‬‬

This is my scripture for these times!

Have a blessed day and I will talk to you soon!

Im going to stay in a hotel and swim with my grandkids tonight!

Take care and be safe!

~Jill~🌸